between heaven n hell

A nice shade of pink for this post.

I’m probably the worst person to consult ANYONE about love. Amor, ‘ai’, cinta… wateva u call it. But while I was doing physics 2 yrs ago, the similiarities between what we call ‘love’ and certain physics concept caught my attention. Thanks to Sir Isaac Newton, we not only have Newton’s Laws of Motion. I call it Physics Laws of Love (from Newton) as told by moi.

1. First Law states about the motion of an object, i.e if moving, will continue its motion and if at rest will continue to be stationary, unless an external force is subjected to it. Inertia.

Right. An example. A single person will stay single, until he/she meets another person (be it single or not). That, people, is the FORCE. Attraction. Vice versa, a pair of lovebirds will remain a couple unless external force e.g, the guy cheats (Brad Pitt and Jen); the girl flees for a richer,older guy (think Donald Trump); realisation (suddenly realise they r gay or that they don’t suit each other anymore); money problems, kids, marriage (love each other when they r single, once hitch…. u noe the story).

Same goes with another related theory, inertia, which is derived from Newton’s theory. A trolley slows down on a track due to friction. Same goes to the concept of love. Those problems mentioned are examples of ‘frictions’. Remember "the larger the mass, the bigger the inertia." Why do you think married men with many kids stay in a marriage ( i didn’t say faithful)? Why are women more reluctant to give in a divorce for the reason because of the kids sake? In this case, children, my friend, are the mass. They give u bigger inertia. U stay married, because u r reluctant to change. On the other hand, Casanovas r usually single men with pumping testesterones. They have NO strings attached, they change easily. From one woman to another. See? inertia.

2. Newton’s 2nd law of motion basically elaborates the formula F=ma. It’s a tricky one. But true.

Try linking this theory to mass and inertia above. You’ll understand. I have another explanation for a as in acceleration. Speed is dangerous. Move to fast, you die. Romeo and Juliet’s incredible love story actually took place in less than 3 days. They fell in love, got married, consummated their marriage, and die. All in 3 days. I studied that play, trust me, i know. The force covers 2 areas of love, bonding and separating. In R&J’s case, it separated them. Another example, some people get married to a person too soon, have sex too soon (more than 50% of women in a survey who reportedly had sex before 18 yrs old regretted it). U do it, find out he or she not for you. You split.

On the other hand, speed sometimes helps. Some ppl hav a really wonderful life from arranged marriage. Parents rush children into getting married, they have kids, live happily ever after. Those who wait, can’t hav kids. They cry. Remember the movie Juno? Juno and Michael Cera’s character fall in love AFTER she gave birth. Ironic right? That’s love, baby.

3. Newton’s 3rd law of motion. My personal favourite. Every action has an opposite and equal reaction.

Boy ask girl out, girl says yes (or no). Newton says u can’t touch anything without being touched. True, you can’t like someone without being liked, or repelled. We’ve all been through this. Or else why bother flirting? bcoz u noe, if u don’t do anything, he/she won’t even know you r alive. You hurt someone, they hurt you as in John Tucker Must Die. ’nuff said.

3. Opposites attract.

Someone once told me that this don’t apply unless you are a magnet. It does however apply. Forget looks, no, i’m not gonna talk about fat girl, skinny guy; beauty and the beast; chinese loves indian. Not THAT! Opposites in characteristics. A hot-tempered guy with a really really patient and understanding gal. Stuff like that. Beauty and the beast do apply here. The Beast has terrible attitude, while Belle is poised, have spirits and loving. Phantom of the Opera. Britney and K-Fed? She’s rich, he’s not. Opposites atrract!

4. Law of conservation of energy. Try to understand this.

Energy here is HOW MUCH you got in you. This i quote from a recent mag i read. That’s why a hot guy usually ends up with a hot girl. Look at the celebs. I don’t see too many fugly couples in the red carpet. Brangelina, beautiful eh? TomKat, Posh n Becks. Guys like Johnny Depp won’t settle for anyone less than Kate Moss *he dated her and is now with Vanessa Paradis (singer and Chanel model)* It’s the universal law. Just like why at one time royalties are not to marry norms. They just abide to this law. You have that much charm, that much ‘energy’… when an explosion happens, u get the same energy u conserve. Why settle for Norbit when you can have Giselle Bundchen right?

However, LOVE does not ALWAYS abide with the laws of the universe. That’s why it’s special. It’s not always predictable. Though some of them may have certain truths in it, it’s still amazing isn’t it? Like I know anything. Physics is boring and dry. I hate physics. Too many rules. There are no rules in love, only games.Have fun with the ride people, I’m still waiting for my turn in this roller-coster of life. :D 

I’m back. After so long, almost half a year, i’m finally posting in my blog again. This is THE time of da yr, da time where it’s always happening. u noe dat Wednesdays r the ‘peak’ for most working ppl, where productivity rates is at their all time high, then it dwindles n go dead comes friday? wokaye, as for me, May/June are always my Wednesdays. At least it WAS, for the past few yrs.

In 2006, i went to tis really superb camp in UPM where i had so much fun wif da gals, n danced my heart out. i was so crazy i did something i’ll nvr do again in my life, i danced reaaallll…well, ‘crazy’ wif Toxic-Britney Spears infront of like, 400 peeps. u get da idea wat kinda dance it was. Ok.. that was then. 2 yrs bak.

Last yr, it was happening. I got my driver’s licence and a heartbreak by some jerk. Oh well… like i said, May/June is da perfect time for scandal! buahahaha.. more fun in life. Tis yr, i might be going to Tioman Island wif my classmates from college. Weeeeelll, at last.. some fun after a looooong period of rut. Practically rotting in college.

I think i’ll take Vivian’s advice..  juz hope for things 2 happen. BE POSITIVE. Folks, BE positive. If u really can’t, FAKE IT k. Just FAKE it. It works. :p

I have juz came 2 realise dat i’ve been letting negativity consume me day after day. Don’t we all? I see in my messenger ppl displaying msgs like "I wanna die", "ending my life", "why does tis happen to me"… it’s way 2 negative.. me too… my previous blog posts r fueled wif negativity.. if u noticed,it evolves around a lame-o i dun wish 2 mention anymore. n wat about all of us? negativity is controlling u, me n everyone.. well, almost everyone, except some lucky peeps who r soooo positive… where r they anyway? probably frolicking somewhere right now. Right now, i dunno wat i’m doin.. probably in a transition mode, u noe, da phase between negative n positive.. wat’s dat called in physics? neutral zone or something like dat.. i dun remember. One thing is for sure, this blog has always been a place, a solace where i can crap wateva junk i want for ppl with da time n right mind 2 read it. I dun expect anyone 2 get anything watsoever from tis blog.. it’s more like an open diary, too bad i can’t mention names here too much, i dun wanna end up in trouble mentioning names,.. nuh-uh.. i overhauled my blog, deleted old news n maintained NEWS.. damn, test is coming, n i still can’t understand  those alkanes and alkenes wateva it is… it juz feel so gud typing non stop… if i were u, i’ll close tis page now n do something else, games, assignment or wateva u do, coz it’s not worth spending time reading me crapping here… i need tuition to fight off negativity…

wow.. one whole week in Ulu Bendul AND I SURVIVED!!! Woo-hoo!!! ok, i hav soooo much to spill about my experience now!!! so, get ready.. if u r reading anyway.

1st day-campsite sux! muddy, full wif scorpions n centipedes… vry vry vry dirty place. thank god the toilet is juz across da street. kgv gals n boys seperated wif mewahans in da middle. share tent wif chai chain, 4-men-tent but 2 gals sleep in it.. not 2 shabby… 1st day gotta clean da hutan… feet full wif mud.. argh! cannot sleep at nite, y? my TL keep ronda near our tents n, not a 2 gal tent, but 3… a cute malay gal share in it for 1 nite!

2nd day- dun feel like stepping out da tent. muddy, muddy, muddy, muddy… rain, rain, rain.. towel dunno where to hang… den got activities 2 do, went for forum pengakap, pameran n water confident.. btw, v r required 2 complete 20 out of 25 activities for our Lencana Terachi. at night, can sleep… zzzzz…

3rd day- more activities, got freakin wet from water polo, den go radio amatur. oh, 3rd day Chai Chain’s birthday!!! poor gal, celebrate birthday there… i got her a present.. a new towel.. hehe… it’s useful since our towels r soakin wet! but 2 bad, she got blisters from halangan komando, n we fell into muddy water! damn it! askar laughing at us,… more jungle clearin, they moved my tent facing other side.. no need 2 wake up seeing mewahans…

4th day-AHAH!!! VERY INTERESTING DAY! ok, i went for kembara lasak.. 5km man! almost die… mud-skatin all da way down da hill, screaming, thank god some guys help me climb, freaky climb.. but i like it… den went water crossing. Chai Chain’s phone went water crossing too, haha… dun need 2 tell wat happen to her phone.. sure ‘kiao’ lar! den do sayang si buta, and i did abseiling.. wanted 2 do flying fox, but stupid me lost da activity coupon… at nite, suppose 2 hav Malam Kebudayaan performance, i wuz da choreographer of da dance, "Asmaradana" song. well,i make up all da gals n boys, lastly, make up myself. wear red kebaya, make up.. all set for dance. THEN, BEHIND DA STAGE, A BIG FREAKIN THING BITE MY LEFT LEG!!!!!! Black starting to press da blood out of my leg.. got real bad, real pain.. AAAAHHH… kelana came, teacher came, say it wuz real serious, angkut me to da car, den angkut me again to medical camp, gave me many many japs.. leg semi-paralysed, very numb, very pain.. go Hospital Kuala Pilah by ambulance.. haha, get 2 ride ambulance!!!! reach hospital, ppl starin at me, coz in heavy make up and red kebaya.. hehe… doctors told me mayb snake or lipan bite me, so gotta admit hospital. went 2 da ward, leg DAMN PAIN!!! 3 am in da mornin, i scream for pain killers, dunno wat da nurses do wif me…

4th day- in da hospital. kelana n da pemimpin n my teacher n my mom n my mom’s friend came visit me. my leg freakin pain.. they bring food. HOSPITAL FOOD SUX! MY PUKE TASTES BETTER. i tot i can go bak camp, but doc say gotta stay 1 more nite… aaargh, worried can’t complete activities. btw, an 85-yr-old old lady admitted today, beside me.. family friendly lar.. so warm..aww… sleep sleep sleep in hospital ny..like pig.. coz pain killers really make me sleep

5th day- waited till 4pm only get outta hospital… phew… 2 kelana came pick me back.. BY MOTORBIKE.. hahaha… rainin all da way bak. reach camp, happy 2 c everybody, so bad can’t dance wif them dat nite.. Chai Chain n Kanages sooo sweet, help me complete all my 20 activities… LOVE THOSE GALS!!!!

6th day- didn’t do activity, kinda lame day.. rain, rain, rain… oh, i knew a few ACS guys, one of them, a f2 guy made ampaian for me… sweet… at nite got COH… everyone talk, talk, talk.. but i sleep early lor, coz medicine workin again..

7th day- knew 3 KL guys, went visit their campsite, nice.. not like ours, bty, KL campsite beside sban timur ny.. near near… very sweet guyz, show me around.. tot wanna go swimmin wif them, but dun wan lar, so many semi-naked guyz in one pool.. dun wanna be da only gal in da pool of semi-naked guys… but i went swimming wif chai chain, kabilan, thina, simon, adrian, tinesh in water polo pool.. not swimmin, more like splashin water!! hahaha.. real fun!!! den go mandi.. den eat.. my tent ALL WET!! BANJIR!!! CAN’T SLEEP!!!!! den go under canopy… da ACS f2 guy teman me, wif 2 mewahans.. so sweet… den, around 2 am, a guy name Andrew from ACS come ask me if i’m from PD kindergarten.. then i realise he was THE ANDREW!!! My PD neighbours relative, didn’t SEE HIM IN LIKE A DECADE!!! change so much d.. used 2 remember him as fair, cute fella… now so tall d… n dark… so diff… nice 2 talk 2 him…jamboree is full of surprises..

8th day- BALIK RUMAH!!!! SING ‘KECEPER’ IN DA RAIN!!! hahahaha… reach home, eat den sleep…

ok, i got many things from tis jamboree, a big ugly lipan scar, new friends, terachi badge, my old childhood fren, mosquito bites n bad hair… well… dat’s life in jamboree… I’M HOME…

I am really not looking forward 2 da jamboree i’ll be attending during mid of december. ONE WEEK.. no, 8 DAYS 7 NIGHTS… I’m so dead meat. I went for a youth conference in UPM in June… it wuz only for 5 days and we actually stay in a room and most of the time we’re in a conference hall thingy.. and when i reach home, i felt like i left for, er, 100 days? n now this, National Jamboree? I dunno… ok, y i go? y i put myself in Ulu Bendul, hear dat, Ulu Bendul JUNGLE for 8 days (more like 8 years).. no phone coverage, no air-cond, no decent toilets(yikes) and no decent food… i will be whistled, shouted and tortured by some kenanga scouts… ok, i’ll tell u y.. bcoz, i nvr been to such things n i thought while signing up (hey, y not i try.. n c if i come home in one piece).. den i pay RM60, bought my haver sack n now, typing here bout my.., not regrets.. at least i will get a national sijil which will help me wif my pitiful ko-ko marks… dat’s good, rite? and, HOPEFULLY, a colourful, BIG batch from there… exclusive, u noe! anyway, i’m sitting 4 my finals now… only 2nd day… 2 more weeks to go.. will return here n write bout my jungle-staying experience.. i’ll bring home mosquito bites n leeches for souvenirs… want some?

Ditcher’s day.. oops.. i meant Teacher’s Day.. v had celebration in kgv today but all i see was an uztad singin(my ear still sting till now) n some red carpets. they do tis every yr and as all da senior noes, all da juniors will b in the hall, like GOODY GOOD students, watching da whole celebration goin on. Besides the teachers, n the GOOD juniors, there r those prefects who r there in charged. N wat happened to THE OTHERS? I’ll tell you! They fall in a few categories i classified:

1.Fly-ers - ppl who lompat pagar out from da skool

2. Love birds- in some senior classes u’ll c some eyes staring at each other, lots of talking n sweet stuff… hmm.. some of my frenz fall in this category..

3.Lepak in skool- these r the ppl who wud wonder around doin ntg

4.Rule breakers- u’ll c forbidden stuff in skool, like hp, camera….

5.grouppies- guys or gals grouped in classes talking till skool end

6.A1 studs/chicks- ppl who take this opportunity 2 study.. they’ll score…

7.Abscent peeps- they didn’t even appear in skool… smart!

ok, so i fall in group 3, 4 and 5…. yea yea… it’s juz so boring!!!!!!! bite me!

So typically me huh..  i hav had ppl(not from my skool) asking "How’s bio? Hard for you or not?" I don’t take BIOLOGY. Why? probably bcoz i dun like it, or mayb i juz dun like 2 study about bio stuff. And, i dun wanna be a doc. SO, why i take it? So i took accounts instead and now i’m like dat "Budak Akaun" from Melewar. Before test, all of a sudden i become "popular", ppl who seldom talk to me come and ask me, "Siew Fong, accounts until which chapter, wat is coming out?" n my phone which is always quiet suddenly rings a few times from unnamed callers asking for accounts stuff. hmm… hey guys, i’m not complaining here, and i’m glad 2 be there 2 help you all.It’s nice helping you guys. Then after test, everything goes back normal, but hey, ppl who asked me start smiling and waving 2 me at the corridors, not bad huh..

and oh, tis mid year, till Imbangan Duga. Gud luck guys! For accounts and bio!